What a beautifull day. There where moments of joy, but also a moment with a lot of anger and frustation. It felt like a casino. To find a gust keeping pressure in the sail was really hard en I tryed to find it all the way to Hardewijk. There I found it big time, but the waves where just to big to get better runs and I took some risks but after 2 spin outs  in a run it was time to go back to the island area. 23 cm was I think to short for those conditions. Than it started to blow really big time and I became worried that all folks where doing nice runs near the island where it was flat.. It took me some time to get back and by the time I was there I run into all the time silly gusts having no pressure in the sail and stuff. After some time  of messing around I felt really provoked by the wind and became really angry on the wind. I checked wheather nobody could hear me and sweared a lot of bad stuff really loud. Than I decied to rest and make less downhaul in the sail.. by the time I was carrying the gear out, big gust again and lots of wind... I went quickly again but the mindset was not right anymore eventough the AVG got a little bit higher wit one run.. Time to go home.. Still nice I did my first 70 km/h 10 sec run and improved on some other speeds.. Also I modifyed the board somewhat and I really enjoyed it's new feel and glyde which I actually mainly was able to know in the big chop near Harderwijk. So it was not that bad that I lost some good conditions going there after all. Learned a lot again!